Okay. If not evident already, I am tired, exhausted and bored of myself. Hence. No more self indulgence. So no more posting till I have something that doesnt include whining. Okthxbai.
Till further notice.
Monday, September 27, 2010
Monday, February 15, 2010
Monday, January 11, 2010
Since visits to new places requires creation of an opinion about them.
So Bombay.
The thing is. I've always known I would love it. And in more than one way, I knew it even before I actually got to know it. Unlike Pink, I did not really do a Bambai parikrama. And whatever I did, is quite a blur. That city is a blur. Correction. That island is a blur. A very pretty one at that. The part I remember quite clearly is getting on a local train. And discovering that women aren't nice, accommodating or pleasant when it comes to public transport. Especially the elderly. Their vocabulary is also quite rich--laden with the choicest expletives. I now know that a bullet is all one needs to become firang/tourist haven. I've found an Oly too. It looks exactly the same. A dingy alleyway leading up a tunnel-like flight of stairs, the carpet withering away with age and relentless tolerating of the degenerate. And cheap alcohol, of course. I didn't bother to find out whether there was beef steak on the menu although. Also, Marine Drive is not the place to exhibit your vocal talents or lack thereof. I've learnt that the most profound conversations can take place over sucky coffee in places with horribly misspelt items on the menu.
Quite surreal then it was, to discover that Porcupine Tree concerts are meant to stop human communication for quite a while afterward and can be felt completely without any substance in your system.
That bargaining with Pink is the shit. All we do is walk away.
There's also the fact that Juhu beach at 2 30 is the coldest thing in Bombay in December.
Added to my list now is the following wisdom "it just takes a set of car keys to start a relationship".
And apparently it just takes 3 days to want to fall in love. With a blur. This blur they call an island. This island they call a blur.
So Bombay.
The thing is. I've always known I would love it. And in more than one way, I knew it even before I actually got to know it. Unlike Pink, I did not really do a Bambai parikrama. And whatever I did, is quite a blur. That city is a blur. Correction. That island is a blur. A very pretty one at that. The part I remember quite clearly is getting on a local train. And discovering that women aren't nice, accommodating or pleasant when it comes to public transport. Especially the elderly. Their vocabulary is also quite rich--laden with the choicest expletives. I now know that a bullet is all one needs to become firang/tourist haven. I've found an Oly too. It looks exactly the same. A dingy alleyway leading up a tunnel-like flight of stairs, the carpet withering away with age and relentless tolerating of the degenerate. And cheap alcohol, of course. I didn't bother to find out whether there was beef steak on the menu although. Also, Marine Drive is not the place to exhibit your vocal talents or lack thereof. I've learnt that the most profound conversations can take place over sucky coffee in places with horribly misspelt items on the menu.
Quite surreal then it was, to discover that Porcupine Tree concerts are meant to stop human communication for quite a while afterward and can be felt completely without any substance in your system.
That bargaining with Pink is the shit. All we do is walk away.
There's also the fact that Juhu beach at 2 30 is the coldest thing in Bombay in December.
Added to my list now is the following wisdom "it just takes a set of car keys to start a relationship".
And apparently it just takes 3 days to want to fall in love. With a blur. This blur they call an island. This island they call a blur.
Thursday, December 3, 2009
If you were walking back to the VIT Girls' Hostel at around six thirty today (or were dropping your better halves/to-be better halves/could-be better halves) you would have noticed as what can only be referred to as bizarre. You would have seen four girls screaming their head off at the trees and plant that line the entire stretch of the pathway back to the hostel. If you paid attention, you could have heard them scream, "You, Intervenal Chlorosis, You", or "Necrotic, you" or the friendlier "Die, Motherfucker, Die". You may have dismissed this as another case of Vellorititis or you may have possibly wondered why.
The answer is this. All these girls were suffering from a nearly terminal illness. And today at five they had found their cure for this cancer.
In other cultures this cure is also known as "The Aftermath of the Plant Physiology Examination".
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Lessons learnt about "The Changing New Face of the Indian Woman" from Savita Bhabhi
1. She is always ready for experimentation. Always open to new experiences and challenges--- Old/New, Male/Female and even Global Recession(refer Volume 8)
2. She does not discriminate. Every man or woman is equal irrespective of cast, creed, social standing, occupation and age.
3. The Rolling Stones song "Satisfaction" was originally written for Savita Bhabhi. She just cant get no. Doesn't mean she stops trying.
4. Servicing the community is literally all she lives for. That is what provides her with a purpose--an identity.
5. Oh, and Whatever Happens, its never her fault. Yes, Yes, her conscience always intervenes, but not for long! A hard-on is all it takes to switch it off.
And the Indian Government bans this. Tsk tsk. Whatta violation of women's rights, I say.
1. She is always ready for experimentation. Always open to new experiences and challenges--- Old/New, Male/Female and even Global Recession(refer Volume 8)
2. She does not discriminate. Every man or woman is equal irrespective of cast, creed, social standing, occupation and age.
3. The Rolling Stones song "Satisfaction" was originally written for Savita Bhabhi. She just cant get no. Doesn't mean she stops trying.
4. Servicing the community is literally all she lives for. That is what provides her with a purpose--an identity.
5. Oh, and Whatever Happens, its never her fault. Yes, Yes, her conscience always intervenes, but not for long! A hard-on is all it takes to switch it off.
And the Indian Government bans this. Tsk tsk. Whatta violation of women's rights, I say.
Friday, October 30, 2009
I discovered/re-discovered The Kinks tonight.
If I was ever a musician, I just know this would be exactly the kind of music I'd make. Not the kind of music I wish I had made, because THAT list is practically inexhaustible for anyone with a Facebook profile.
It is the kind of music I would make. If I was a musician, that is. Somewhere in a parallel universe they would call me The British Invasion. I'd wear leather capes and boots on stage and try not looking like an ad for a BDSM website. And I'd make happy-crazy-audacious and always, always oddly satisfying music.
And then I'd put on my slippers, and sit by the fire. Cause I'd know I've reached my top and I couldnt get any higher. I'd be in my place and I'd know where I was. In my Shangri-La.
Friday, October 9, 2009
“This,” he says. “This is why The Beatles got it.”
“I’m afraid I’m not following…”
“Other bands, it’s about sex. Or pain. Or some fantasy. But The Beatles, they knew what they were doing. You know the reason The Beatles made it so big?”
“What?”
“‘I Wanna Hold Your Hand.’ First single. Fucking brilliant. Perhaps the most fucking brilliant song ever written. Because they nailed it. That’s what everyone wants. Not 24-7 hot wet sex. Not a marriage that lasts a hundred years. Not a Porsche or a blow job or a million-dollar crib. No. They wanna hold your hand. They have such a feeling that they can’t hide. Every single successful love song of the past fifty years can be traced back to ‘I Wanna Hold Your Hand.’ And every single successful love story has those unbearable and unbearably exciting moments of hand-holding. Trust me. I’ve thought a lot about this.”
“‘I Wanna Hold Your Hand,’” I repeat.
“And so you are, my friend. So you are.”
“I’m afraid I’m not following…”
“Other bands, it’s about sex. Or pain. Or some fantasy. But The Beatles, they knew what they were doing. You know the reason The Beatles made it so big?”
“What?”
“‘I Wanna Hold Your Hand.’ First single. Fucking brilliant. Perhaps the most fucking brilliant song ever written. Because they nailed it. That’s what everyone wants. Not 24-7 hot wet sex. Not a marriage that lasts a hundred years. Not a Porsche or a blow job or a million-dollar crib. No. They wanna hold your hand. They have such a feeling that they can’t hide. Every single successful love song of the past fifty years can be traced back to ‘I Wanna Hold Your Hand.’ And every single successful love story has those unbearable and unbearably exciting moments of hand-holding. Trust me. I’ve thought a lot about this.”
“‘I Wanna Hold Your Hand,’” I repeat.
“And so you are, my friend. So you are.”
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Randomness makes the world a better place. An easier place. A sexier place. Randomness brings together retards annd makes them "special". Randomness makes wilderness and creatures of the night come alive. Randomness makes us anti-social. It makes us pole dance. It makes us sing Rhythm Divine. Makes us observe strange mating rituals and walk into unisex toilets. It makes us find Ladies In the Water. Apparently it also leads to Tango. It leads to aimless walks amidst Barns against backdrops of rain-lit skies. It leads to scarilicious eyes, disoriented 'orientations', single malt whiskies and intoxicating slushes. Randomness causes Lone Wolves to answer questions about Sex Positions at 4 in the night, and about brilliant retards at a 'more suitable time for girls'. It also causes myriad renditions of Na na na nananana which would put George, Paul and Co. to shame. Randomness reasons out One Spot, Jump Down, The Knife, Sssss and charading into the night. It makes sense of Condoms and Chewing Gum. It also gives meaning to being perpetually stoned apparently. And horrible V for Vendetta-like(or the eponymous version) sunburns. It takes us to Samudra Permit rooms. It makes us appreciate subtlety or the lack of it. And the various kinds of girls there are. It makes us make poor comebacks and talk till sunrise. And sometimes, once in a while, it makes us silent. And then it overwhelms us.
And just then it leaves. Quietly, shadily, mysteriously. And if you look at it as it walks away, it might just resemble a blue bus with headlights vanishing into the night.
And just then it leaves. Quietly, shadily, mysteriously. And if you look at it as it walks away, it might just resemble a blue bus with headlights vanishing into the night.
Saturday, July 25, 2009
So I'm back Helloring. Posts shall get frequenter with advent of new technology called Wireless. On happy days(i.e. Thursday and Friday) I shall sleep till 12. I shall also have crazy ass prof whose sex ed classes make the paavam girls in my class do "the roll your eyes scandalously" routine. I shall also have studmacha boydom in my class shouting Mr. India songs in Plant Physio class. I shall also have "Wear a labcoat and evade the Warden" strategy planning sessions. And welcome back into my life the Teen Deviyan, The Non-Single One, and the One with the Cyst. And the unneeded experience of the inexperienced. And the nautanki of dramatics and the people in it. And the continuous recharges. And a new roomsharer.
And most of all hail the Return of Grape Juice.
And "icebreaking".
:D
And most of all hail the Return of Grape Juice.
And "icebreaking".
:D
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Things are leaving me increasingly disillusioned.
1.I just found out the House theme song is called Teardrop. I mean, really? Doesn't House have a conscience, but at all?
2. Michael Jackson died. Now where will all the jokes go?? :(
The children are glad, though. Some of them might just have a chance at a normal childhood now.
3. There are way too many people creating How Well Do You Know Me quizzes on Facebook.
Fine! I'll admit it. I've thought about it more than once.
4.The Mummy in Tamil actually has seeds and leechers on Mininova.
Lots of them. That's scary beyond belief.
5. I have started following a serial on a Bengali satellite channel. Its about a girl who willingly marries a retard and has some divine connection with the Goddess Durga.
Now I am scaring myself.
Also. My mom has a more active social life than me.
I rest my case.
1.I just found out the House theme song is called Teardrop. I mean, really? Doesn't House have a conscience, but at all?
2. Michael Jackson died. Now where will all the jokes go?? :(
The children are glad, though. Some of them might just have a chance at a normal childhood now.
3. There are way too many people creating How Well Do You Know Me quizzes on Facebook.
Fine! I'll admit it. I've thought about it more than once.
4.The Mummy in Tamil actually has seeds and leechers on Mininova.
Lots of them. That's scary beyond belief.
5. I have started following a serial on a Bengali satellite channel. Its about a girl who willingly marries a retard and has some divine connection with the Goddess Durga.
Now I am scaring myself.
Also. My mom has a more active social life than me.
I rest my case.
Friday, June 12, 2009
These smells I know of.
There's a certain way a book smells. Its not nice, or something you'll remember once its encased in your high and mighty bookcase. Its almost invisible, lurking behind certain pages you'd normally skim, skip even. You'll smell it, only if you want to (which I'm guessing in most cases you wouldn't). Therein lies its charm. Its self-assured, satisfactory, elusive(?) charm. If you notice long enough, you'd know each author has their own smell. I smell Chingri Maachher Malaikaari in an old Sidney Sheldon, boiling with secrets and sauces that make it bestselling. A Roald Dahl smells of a Kookie Jar fudge brownie, peppered with words, which otherwise would be limp, but in this delectable concoction become beautiful. A Mahfouz smells of cinnamons--the one spice I haven't yet fully understood.
There's Zadie Smith who smells like Andhraite cuisine--so spicy that you'd want to tear it apart to figure out the myriad senses that go into its preparation, yet so wholesome and satisfying that you can't help a generous second helping. Amitav Ghosh plays with your senses--like a good Thai Red Curry which smells fishy, yet not, tangy, yet not. But stringed with ingredients that strike at the right place. The place called home.
Then there's Ian McEwan who smells like a four-tiered wedding cake, a Crème brûlée ....so pretty you're afraid it might crumble, so delicate you're almost afraid you're damaging it.
Samit Basu is good, old-fashioned Biriyani-- tingling new tastebuds everytime, producing unique and utterly compelling sensations. Reminds me sometimes of Chopsuey---put in all known, mundane ingredients, yet produce something remarkably original.
These smells.
These books.
These writers.
They just know.
They just know how to.
There's Zadie Smith who smells like Andhraite cuisine--so spicy that you'd want to tear it apart to figure out the myriad senses that go into its preparation, yet so wholesome and satisfying that you can't help a generous second helping. Amitav Ghosh plays with your senses--like a good Thai Red Curry which smells fishy, yet not, tangy, yet not. But stringed with ingredients that strike at the right place. The place called home.
Then there's Ian McEwan who smells like a four-tiered wedding cake, a Crème brûlée ....so pretty you're afraid it might crumble, so delicate you're almost afraid you're damaging it.
Samit Basu is good, old-fashioned Biriyani-- tingling new tastebuds everytime, producing unique and utterly compelling sensations. Reminds me sometimes of Chopsuey---put in all known, mundane ingredients, yet produce something remarkably original.
These smells.
These books.
These writers.
They just know.
They just know how to.
Saturday, June 6, 2009
Summer
These things that we do, we do in summer. We make exits. We make entries. We find. We lose. We travel. To spaces in our head, to the places in these spaces... We live. Eat 4 rotis. Wear collared shirts. Visit pan shops. Become racist. Or make-faces-to-keep-little-kids away. Its summe"R" with an accented R. And Virginia Slims.
In summer we make faces. The We Cant Be Worthless, We Have To Write a Play face. The cheeky smile face. The Wide Toothed grin when you realize that months of conspiring has led to nicety. The Dimples on Dimpal. The Shy is Coming face. The What the Fuck face. And the 3 day extension smiles. Also there's the QWERTY face. But thats always there.
There is also the Communing with the Astral and Parvati Valley. And Tumi Amar...............(pause) Maa. And there's Oly. And Monsters Vs. Aliens. Also disillusionments with primetime idols. Jai hok.
Oh, And there's sleep. So good night.
In summer we make faces. The We Cant Be Worthless, We Have To Write a Play face. The cheeky smile face. The Wide Toothed grin when you realize that months of conspiring has led to nicety. The Dimples on Dimpal. The Shy is Coming face. The What the Fuck face. And the 3 day extension smiles. Also there's the QWERTY face. But thats always there.
There is also the Communing with the Astral and Parvati Valley. And Tumi Amar...............(pause) Maa. And there's Oly. And Monsters Vs. Aliens. Also disillusionments with primetime idols. Jai hok.
Oh, And there's sleep. So good night.
Friday, May 15, 2009
I call this day a lot of things. But mostly the Day of the Doughnuts. And Evil Waffles. And missing Nutties. And Chicken and Roti. And missing(?) raindrops. I shall miss the Singaporean. And mashima. And the girl who keeps quiet when we annoy. And the pretty colors.
Wait. I just saw them again.
Looks like this trip aint over just yet.
Wait. I just saw them again.
Looks like this trip aint over just yet.
Monday, March 30, 2009
You cant exactly blame me for not turning in a single post this month. Blame it on Hellore and this semester, rather the lack of this. The extra break home. The holidays marred by classes. And the exams that got cancelled in a parallel universe. And the dialer that never got fixed. But right now no more. Which is where Bangalore came in.
I've never been able to understand the deal with people and their cities. Look, its really easy to love Cal. The city doesnt impose on you its myriad traditions or centuries of heritage. It aint rush you--moving at a pace epitomised by its most famous symbol---the rickshaw. You need not be anyone but your usual damaged bandaged supercilious annoying bubbly cynical self to survive. Other cities often make me wonder. Bangalore has. Quite often. This time I figured it out. The people here probably thrive on that gymlike furious pace I so consciously avoid. Multistoreyed buildings and castles of steel frame their horizon like the haze that outlines Cal's skyline. We both live silent lives of misery, make up lies for a living---breathing in toxicity and Raat-Ki-Rani with the same efficiency. The 'cities' provide us with that. The maze that constitutes MG Brigade Koramangala is self-content, satisfactory---Camac and Rawdon beckoning. Their talli gallis are neon-lit like stills out of a Wong Kar Wai production. They breathe on this evanescent euphoria their citizens send billowing...the currency varying by a few hundreds here and there. The nights end differently. They begin in the same way. And nostalgia swoops in, slowly and inconspicuously.
I think the next time I visit Bangalore, Ill probably finally understand it. And learn to love. It.
Saturday, February 28, 2009
Happy 29th Feb
Its been a month since a post and I had to get in one before February ended. Its one of those obsessive things that you cant really make sense of. Like, 40 degrees in February, or working Saturdays, or Youth Parliaments or Accidental Deaths of Anarchists. There is too much happening way too soon for The Old Lady( read as me) to process with clarity. Reminds me of Benjamin Button. And times-when-things-were-slower. And easier.
No I'm not color blind
I know the world is black and white
Try to keep an open mind but...I just can't sleep on this tonight
Stop this train I want to get off and go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can't
But honestly won't someone stop this train
Don't know how else to say it, don't want to see my parents go
One generation's length away
From fighting life out on my own
Stop this train
I want to get off and go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can't
but honestly won't someone stop this train
So scared of getting older
I'm only good at being young
So I play the numbers game to find away to say that life has just begun
Had a talk with my old man
Said help me understand
He said turn 68, you'll renegotiate
Don't stop this train
Don't for a minute change the place you're in
Don't think I couldn't ever understandI tried my hand
John, honestly we'll never stop this train
See once in a while when it's good
It'll feel like it should
And they're all still around
And you're still safe and sound
And you don't miss a thing'til you cry when you're driving away in the dark.
Singing stop this train I want to get off and go home again
I can't take this speed it's moving in
I know I can't
Cause now I see I'll never stop this train(think I got 'em now)
No I'm not color blind
I know the world is black and white
Try to keep an open mind but...I just can't sleep on this tonight
Stop this train I want to get off and go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can't
But honestly won't someone stop this train
Don't know how else to say it, don't want to see my parents go
One generation's length away
From fighting life out on my own
Stop this train
I want to get off and go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can't
but honestly won't someone stop this train
So scared of getting older
I'm only good at being young
So I play the numbers game to find away to say that life has just begun
Had a talk with my old man
Said help me understand
He said turn 68, you'll renegotiate
Don't stop this train
Don't for a minute change the place you're in
Don't think I couldn't ever understandI tried my hand
John, honestly we'll never stop this train
See once in a while when it's good
It'll feel like it should
And they're all still around
And you're still safe and sound
And you don't miss a thing'til you cry when you're driving away in the dark.
Singing stop this train I want to get off and go home again
I can't take this speed it's moving in
I know I can't
Cause now I see I'll never stop this train(think I got 'em now)
Monday, January 26, 2009
Love Letter 101
The most functional and fulfilling relationship I have ever been in is with my blog.
I love how rude I can be with my blog. How completely unfaithful I can be with it and it doesn't give a tiny rat's arse when I choose to ignore it and move forward with other aspects of my life. The part of life called Life that is. I have no concrete commitment to it. I don't have to make conversation with it when I feel like shit. I can say whatever I want to it without bothering about its repercussions. It's self content and satisfied and secure. Yet it needs me and I need it sometimes. That's when I decide to write. Whether its the mundane details of my dreary existence, the little things that make it almost exciting sometimes, the people who make it worth spending a fortune travelling back and forth(even if it is for four days) and the strangeties of living out of a box, in front of a box, while being boxed on all sides by a non-forgiving semester and boxing out time to unwind, boxed out amidst rearing egos and Scottish accents. You make it all possible, love. Here's to months more of liking it that way.
Good morning, 26 Jan 2009.
I love how rude I can be with my blog. How completely unfaithful I can be with it and it doesn't give a tiny rat's arse when I choose to ignore it and move forward with other aspects of my life. The part of life called Life that is. I have no concrete commitment to it. I don't have to make conversation with it when I feel like shit. I can say whatever I want to it without bothering about its repercussions. It's self content and satisfied and secure. Yet it needs me and I need it sometimes. That's when I decide to write. Whether its the mundane details of my dreary existence, the little things that make it almost exciting sometimes, the people who make it worth spending a fortune travelling back and forth(even if it is for four days) and the strangeties of living out of a box, in front of a box, while being boxed on all sides by a non-forgiving semester and boxing out time to unwind, boxed out amidst rearing egos and Scottish accents. You make it all possible, love. Here's to months more of liking it that way.
Good morning, 26 Jan 2009.
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Ho-Hum
Listen.
Listen to me now.
Listen because its too early. Its too late.
Shono.
They are in my head. These things.
Listen before these other things overpower me.
They just did.
Happy New Year. For all the things we had and didn't this year. For Orange Skies and Colorblinds and Jee Kardas and apple-bottom jeans. For the Fall-Out Boy and the 20 grand girl. For the dirty whore. For the greensunglass mamuni.For Ballygunge and its lost gallis. For time that will come back never the same. different but maybe the same?
For prophecies unfulfilled. For lunches owed. For the beauty of prettycolors. For manicured haircuts and Christmas-dida-eyemakeup. For Mamu. For Russell Peters. For mental cunts. For lit-ups and light up and lighten up. For Atrium and points of no return. For the lies we tell over and over. For things that were and will be. Miss is too little(?) too much. Forgive me, Vellore--the charm of your manicured greens may never be enough.
You know, "Its true."
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Sunday, December 21, 2008
Its a week later. And I'll tell you where I am supposed to be right now. Out with friends I haven't met for over a year but I've been clamoring to for so bloody long. I was always skeptical about this reunion not living upto the expectations I had set up for it so carefully and impulsively. Today seems to be the lucky day to prove my nagging suspicions right.
So I shall watch Chink-bubblegum now.
Maybe it will get rid of this inexplicable ache in the realms of bodymind.
Maybe it will help to curb the urge to light up.
For the moment, Im just tired of being the happy one.
So I shall watch Chink-bubblegum now.
Maybe it will get rid of this inexplicable ache in the realms of bodymind.
Maybe it will help to curb the urge to light up.
For the moment, Im just tired of being the happy one.
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